CREATE THE MOMENT

today i feel like there is a grey cloud over my gypsy hilton. good is happining all around us, sometimes we are resistant to seeing and accepting the good. it has been raining here for a few days so maybe the pressure or the wetness is seeping into my bones and creating feelings of gloom. yeah thats it... ! or it could be the project on delaware,the best assembly later today, the laundry,the lack of sleep,the outburst from lige, the tears bella shed this morning,its only 7:27 and im ready to go back to where i came from. ..my BED. i poured bella a cup of hot chocolate and on the package it reads CREATE THE MOMENT,i thought how sweet a moment between us before the boys are up and the day begins. it ended in tears and a stomp off..well that went just dandy i thought. i tried to relate to her and say i understood how she felt. how she feels about being the oldest, not looking forward to growing up,and living with divorced parents. isaac the kids dad and i are going on our 4th year of being divorced. the kids were little, but to bella i cant relate because im not a kid. you see my parents just got divorced after 36 years of marriage. talk about put a new perspective on how my children feel. wow its EPIC as my little friend cassidy would say. divorce bites the big one a delux with cheese and onions.bottom line its not the design but often times it is the result. so what are you going to make of it, peace or a lifetime of excuses? i choose peace. not everyone can or does, some do and it is just in a different time frame from others. we all need to be allowed time to grieve and patience. the process is just that a process.i have his everlasting loving arms wrapped around my heart and soul. one day bella will choose her path, i trust that the same everlasting arms are around her and hopefully by my example she is able to make that choice easily. creating the moment or allowing the moment..of joy and or pain (as much as we all run from it)when we sit there with all our stuff..something beautiful can happen,we allow ourselves to experience healing and love in our lives. so create the moments even if they go haywire your not in control any way the everlasting father the one "man" who never changes...he's got your back. the prince of peace. you were created in the image of love(god is love).. so go ahead love who you are.....